Chuck // Blair // "I love you"

It takes a long time for people to say those three words, those eight letters. For Chuck and Blair, we went through nearly six whole seasons before they were finally really and truly together. Even then, it was not under the circumstances we craved. They were the epic romance. Chuck got shot for Blair. He would have died to save that engagement ring. He gave up his kingdom so he could have his queen B. Their romance was full of unspoken "I love you"s and uncanny bad timing. They were always running in opposite directions or yearning for things that were not each other. Chuck and Blair are the epic romance, but they are not the perfect romance. Both Chuck and Blair take their love for the other for granted. They believe their love will survive death and loss. It will survive separation and marriages. They constantly expect the other to wait an undetermined amount of time until the timing and the weather and the orbital rotation of the earth are all in exact alignment.

I'm scared that if this doesn't work out, then he will become another notch in my belt. I don't want him to be another notch, another regret, another story, another explanation. I don't want him to be my first ex, I want him to be my last love. I'm scared to fall in love, not because love seems scary, but because I am so scared of being heartbroken. I am scared of falling in love. And I know that if I fall in love I won't ever want to have to go back, I won't be able to.